After I finished with finals last week I made an honest effort to call people I hadn't spoken to in a while and catch up. It was when I spoke to my old high school true blue that I had my latest epiphany...
LOVE IS EXCRUCIATING.
The funny thing about pain is, people will endure it over and over and over again. Our brains can't compartmentalize a memory for pain. It's the same reason why I keep getting more tattoos. Foolish, yes. But once the pain fades, all that remains is the poetic piece of artwork that I love and enjoy.
Movies tell us the same thing. Big left Carrie in tears sooo many times before they learned how to love each other. Q got big headed and proposed to Tyra Banks. Thennn, Monica left basketball and took an office job before either of them risked their pride and expressed their love for one another. Remember Slumdog Millionaire? That little boy commiserated over Latika until he was a grown man. He got beat up, chased and betrayed by his brother before he could get to his girl. He had to get on a game show and win one million rupee to get that girl to come to her senses! Lol.
Moral of the story: Apparently, love sucks before it gets really, really good. And, because our minds have no memory center for pain, we will keep trying and trying and trying... blindly walking into relationships, waiting for that reckless, crazy, dangerously unconditional love...
So, whether it's the tiniest crush or a full blown committed relationship, love will induce what will seem like unbareable pain at times. Remain steadfast in your pursuit because just when you've almost lost hope, love will come along and sweep you off your feet. It is destiny.
That's what the movies tell us at least...
