Get It Gabby!

I always get excited to see people living their dream. Check out Precious star, Gabourey Sidibe, on the cover of EBONY magazine. Secretly, every little Black girl in America has dreamed of being on this cover. Lol.

Go 'head Gabby! You better work!

BLOG 22: My Journey to Emotional Availability...

I am a concrete fortress: treacherous, enigmatic and impenetrable.

I’ve stood elevated through battles. Friends have betrayed me. Boys have hurt me. My hero has fallen from grace. Every battle that has tried to chip away at my walls has only built them stronger and more powerful than before.

People say that strength is a noble quality. Weak people rarely get ahead. But after much self evaluation, I’m beginning to believe that my strength may actually be my greatest weakness.

I’ve built my walls so high, so unbelievably sturdy, that I haven’t bothered to let anyone in. My existence is merely functional. That’s no way to live. It’s a life disconnected from what matters, disconnected from what is real.

I read this article by Adam Phillips entitled Insatiable Creatures and felt like he was speaking directly to me:

"...our excessive behaviour shows us how obscure we are to ourselves or how we obscure ourselves; how our frustrations, odd as this may seem, are excessively difficult to locate, to formulate. Wherever and whenever we are excessive in our lives it is the sign of an as yet unknown deprivation. Our excesses are the best clue we have to our own poverty, and our best way of concealing it from ourselves."

So, today, I vow to let it in. Whatever it is, I want to feel it. No matter how scary, dirty or unfathomable the possible consequence, I will let my emotions lead rather than my desire for stability.

My constant need to guard my heart is in EXCESS.

And, an excess of anything can be detrimental to my everything...

I VOW TO LIVE.

This Week's Random Quote...

"WHEN IT’S ALL SAID AND DONE, REMEMBER THE FEARLESS, REMEMBER THE DREAMERS, REMEMBER THOSE WHO REPRESENT THE GHETTO… REMEMBER CLOTHING IS A CHOICE. WE WERE BORN NAKED!!! FRESH IS AN OPINION, LOVE IS OBJECTIVE, TASTE IS SELECTIVE, AND EXPRESSION IS MY FAVORITE ELECTIVE."

-Kanye West

Image via NecoleBitchie

Melanie Fiona- A Song For Haiti- www.hopeforhaitinow.org

Redemption Song = My Jam

I love the way Bob Marley does it, but Ms. Fiona can definitely sannngggg...

BLOG 21: Her Soul Blinked.

She sat in the dining room
Of her parents' house,
Reading cases and materials
In Criminal Law,
Flashing back to days
When mischief was her only concern
And all she wanted
Was to be a pretty skinned girl
So that he would see her.

Just five years ago
She sat in this same seat,
Sipping Lemon-lime soda,
Longing to be ascertained.

She wore oversized hoodies,
Baggy jeans,
Her hair always slicked back
In a raggedy ponytail.
But she wished for his attention,
hung onto his every word,
wanted so badly for him to see past
her rugged exterior.

She waited. And waited. And waited.

And today,
While attempting to finish her assignment
Her phone vibrated
And his name flashed bright across the screen.

She glanced quickly at the phone
And goose pimples tickled her arms.
She was determined not to answer.

When the vibrating stopped,
There was one new voicemail.

His voice,
Low and raspy,
Echoed in her ear.

Her soul blinked.

"I love you," he said.

She wiped a single tear
From her eye
And resumed reading.

He was too late.
He was always too late.

This Week's Random Quote...

"I just want to do God's will. And He's allowed me to go up to the mountain... And I've seen the Promised Land. I may not get there with you. But I want you to know tonight, that we, as a people, will get to the promised land! "

- Martin Luther King, Jr.

Watch Dr. King's "I Have a Dream" Speech below:

Haiti Earthquake - Disaster Response

I've been a member of Habitat for Humanity since college. Here's a link where you can send donations to support the survivors of the disaster.

www.habitat.org

Haiti is in my prayers...

Saturday Morning Eye Candy...

I watch CNN almost religiously on Saturday mornings.
Though I love being in the know,
I'm pretty sure that T.J. Holmes is the reason why.
Thank you, CNN.

pole-r opposites

her father was a doctor, her mother was a lawyer, her brother was a teacher, her sister was a flautist, and all she really wanted to be was a stripper.




pole-r opposites

BLOG 19: The Unfortunates.

I’m still trying to figure this lawyer thing out. I know I don’t want to be a lawyer. But there’s something about this law school thing. It pulls you in, and makes u want it soooo bad.

That’s why my classmates are a--holes. They can’t help it. Law school breeds this almost insane competition amongst students.

You enter, first day of second semester, knowing your grades and sizing up everyone around you. If you got the good grades, you’re intending to weed out the people who didn’t get what you got. And, if you’re one of the unfortunates who received the bad grades, you’re trying to let your classmates know that , “Hey, I still belong here.”

I happen to be one of the unfortunates. It’s not because I’m not as smart as my colleagues. It’s just that, in hindsight, my approach was all wrong. I did my work. I read the cases. I even helped others to excel. However, the competitor in me failed immensely.

My personality is … uhh… shiny. Lol. I just want to make people smile. They say there’s no crying in baseball. Well, apparently there’s no playing in law school. I get it.

So now comes my second chance. The opportunity for me to wipe the slate clean and grab the straight A’s that I am capable of. I can’t let my playfulness outweigh the competitor that I know is somewhere in me. It’s go time!!!

Because at the end of the day, my only real competition is myself.

I Lost My Life In Law School

Back to school this week...!!!
I may be the only dork I know who finds this funny...





Haha.

BLOG 18: Another Epiphany.

I am happy.
And that's okay.

That is all.

MARIAH WAS GETTIN HER DRANK ON!

Hahaha... I love it!

This Week's Random Quote...

"Don't make a new year's resolution.

Endeavor to be your resolution."

-Femi

Kings of Leon - Use Somebody

Basically, I love this song. That is all.